On a plane somewhere between Omaha, NE and Dallas, TX: It’s the end of December and I can’t believe I’ve only written one blog. Actually, I CAN believe it, I just hate that it’s true. It’s been a combination of too busy / too lazy / too sad. I’ve had some blog ideas over the past few weeks, but haven’t had or taken the time to help them come to fruition. However, I’ve had their titles in my mind:
The Gambler (you’ve got to know when to hold 'em…)
Don’t Speak
Ghosts of Christmases Past
Sometimes, I feel like my blogs should be documentation of the BIG things that happen in my life. And while some have been, considering my blog is titled “musings from the road,” it really is more about my aimless thoughts about life as I see it from wherever I’m standing. So maybe I can cut myself some slack.
I’ve had a few revelations over the past month that aren’t mind-blowing, but more of a recognition of “this is how it feels when life is this way.” They’re like mini-aha moments.
A few choice selections:
- One of my greatest fears is being somewhere in the world and no one knowing where I am. One of my greatest adventures this year was being somewhere in the world and no one knowing where I was. Interesting how I feel differently about it when I look at it in a different light.
- Having a spiritual life is like having a child. You can pretend it doesn’t exist or isn’t as important as you want it to be, but eventually it’s going to come around and expect to be taken care of. It might be easier to just introduce the child right away so it’s not a surprise later on.
- People are going to disappoint you. Even the ones you really love and even if they either don’t realize they’re doing it or they think they are doing it for the “right” reasons.
- The only thing that stays the same is change. The more you try to control it and keep things in the same box that has worked in the past, the more you lose control over it.
- Unabashedly bawling your eyes out (thank U, Alanis) with a real friend is truly cleansing.
- Sometimes the better choice is to walk away. Sometimes the better choice is to just do it. Either way, both decisions can make me feel shitty and second guess myself. But at least when the decision has been made, I can begin working from that new place.
- This moment, good or bad, does not mean it’s going to be the same forever. We have no idea what the future holds so just because it’s happening a certain way right now does not mean it’s going to happen the same way again the next day or week or year.
- Careful what you ask for. You just might get it.
My hope is to eventually get the new iPhone where it records your voice and translates it into text for you. That way, I can just talk into my phone and eventually go back and copy & past them into a blog. Maybe that way, I’ll get a few more revelations out as they’re actually happening.
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